Ramblings of a MadWoman

I Write

I write
You read
With like
Or dislike
With understanding
Or perplexion
No matter which
We’ve sparked a thought
Ignited a feeling
This is why
We are alive
To experience it all!

Hammaming In Maroc!

A small inconsequential door
Marks our entry
To a unique shared experience
Centuries old
Age & youth
Arab & western
Come together
Side by side
We sit
In each other’s slops!
We bath
Uncovered
Exposed

You
Comfortable in your bareness
Within this hidden interior
A stark contrast
To your veiled appearance
On the streets!
For us
The reverse
Comfortable in our bareness
Unclothed on the streets
We quiver
With self consciousness
When bare
In the company of our sisters!

For you
No need to flaunt
No need to taunt
You are comfortable
Within your being
Expressed
Thru brush strokes
As you groom each other
With the tenderness of lovers
Strangers side by side
You share this moment
Cleansing
Purifying
Almost a sacred
Silent ritual
But so much
Knowing is exchanged

There is a shift
Upon our presence
As we enter
Our awkwardness
Amusement
For the locals
The spell
Temporarily broken
Reweaves itself
All eyes turn
As we slip & slide
Nervous laughter
Shadows our discomfort
We feel exposed
And out of place
And yet
The warm steamy atmosphere
Is strongly safe & secure

Slowly we relax
Into the strong hands
That twist & turn our bodies
Deftly navigating our curves
Without being too personal
Or intimate
The layers wash away
Not just skin!
We are cleansed
Mentally
Emotionally
Spiritually
Physically!

We float
Back into
The maddening crowds
Of Fez
But we are different
Our spirits are glowing
We are heartfelt
And knowing
Feeling divinely alive
And floaty
We slip gently
Back into
The ebb & flow
Of the medina

Overly Capable

Imagine
If we were capable 24*7
What room would there be
For others to step forward
To allow them to contribute
To flourish & grow
If you are always capable
And in control
Where is the room
… For your partners support
… Your children to help
… Your work mates to have a go
For as long as you are fully capable
There is no room
For growth of self
Or others
Perhaps you are stealing the limelight
Hoarding the opportunities
No matter
It always balances out
In the end
Either they will become dependant
And you resentful
Or it will fire them up
So they demand an opportunity
Either way
It is catalyst for change
A chance to rebalance the sea saw!

Sun Lover

I feel your warmth
Playing on my face
Your breeze
Ruffles my hair
The knots in my heart
Loosen
I close my eyes
Seduced by your warmth
I feel safe
Nurtured
Rejuvenation commences
Releasing the binds
I place around me
Slowly at first
I relax into your warmth
Wooed by your intensity
I feel it penetrate my mind
Clearing the crap
Making room
Preparing space
For new chapters
There’s so much to sample
Plenty to taste
I feel compelled
To drink it all
Nothing to waste!

Create & Destroy

Not only do we create but we destroy
What is destruction?
A clearing of the past …
The paving of a new path …
Purging old beliefs …
Lightening the load …

Every minute of every day
Our bodies are both creating & destroying
Our cellular structure is killing off
Powering down
Phasing out old cells
It does this to keep up vitality
To keep us in perfect working order
It makes way for the new

And so  …
We too …
Consciously & unconsciously
Create & destroy
Hand in hand
They work in tandem
Like everything in this paradox we call life
Two sides of the same coin

So often we only want to see one side
But there is always 2
Do you see them now
In everything you do
Take a look
It is always there

Balance

Balance …
A desire so strong
Seeking …  searching
We look for that elusive balance

What is it really?
A mid point?
Oscillation between 2 extremes?
Its different things for different people

A set of scales evenly poised
Treading carefully
So we do not disrupt
Perfect symmetry

Perhaps the ebb & flow
High tide
Low tide
Perfect counter balance

Head in the oven
Feet in the freezer
On average …
I am warm!

What is it really?
A concept … A construct
Of how we should or shouldn’t
Different things for different people!

Balance
A perception
Of the mind
Of the senses

If we see wide enough
If we see far enough
We will see the truth
Everything as it should be

Every minute of every day
Perfect unison
Perfect synergy
All in balance or counter balance

So like the pendulum swing
Perfect symmetry
If you can only see
Both sides of the swing

Too & fro
We ebb & flow
The dance of life
Fluidity in motion

Gala Performance

The sky darkens
Day turns to night
The smell of rain hits your nostrils
Like smelling salts
Alert now!
Watching … waiting
You feel the electricity in the air
Charged particles spinning at random
Building momentum
Brewing … brooding
The seconds tick by
As we all hold our breath
Waiting for the storm to break
Lightening rips thru the sky
Advance warning of what is to come
Thunderous applause as the heavens breech
A deluge like nothing seen before
Instant flash flooding
Every channel bursting its banks
A cleansing moment
So torrid
So wild
It creates excitement
As we huddle together
Under what little shelter we have
Surrounded by natural beauty
A gala performance
Unfolding before us
All on cue
Perfectly orchestrated
Sight & sound synchronised
No better choreography
Mother nature at her best!

Metaphysical Pioneer

Freedom … bondage
Teasing … torment
My mind does this to me!
I sense an inability
A growing resentment!

All things serve
I just don’t see
Knowledge & insight
More painful to bear
I don’t want to play
I don’t want to care

Rebelliousness arises
Deep within me
Forever the defiant child
I push aside the norm
Separating myself from the rest
Searching for my best

Will I ever be content?
With what I see in front of me?
Sometimes I think not!
But that only makes me look longer & harder
Searching for new ways
Searching for new insights
For this is my plight!

Leave no rock unturned
Some do this in the physical sense!
Me
I am an explorer of the heart, mind & soul
A metaphysical pioneer
Searching for links
And inter dependencies
For we are not separate
We are intricately entwined
Heart soul body & mind

For every shift
There is a counter shift
I will unearth these relationships
These intricacies
For all to see & understand
It will guide some
Whilst others …
Will close their minds
Forever to remain blind!