Joy Filled
We are all joy filled
That is part of our true essence
But for some of us
We resist
Boy … do we resist!
For whatever reasons
We grit our teeth
Refusing to smile
Defusing our joy filled states
What a conundrum
We place ourselves within
Seriousness or sadness
Cast upon us
By our own hands!
I ask myself
From where does this resistance come?
What beliefs do I hold
That deny myself
Of my natural joy filled state?
• Is it too simple
• Life’s not that easy
• That’s not being responsible
• You must take life seriously
• Be focused, logical & determined
• You must work hard & you will be rewarded
• You must be the best
• You must achieve your full potential
• You must make something of your life
• No time to waste
• Work work work
And so I did!
I think back …
To the carefree fun loving girl of 6
All smiles & pigtails
Where did she go?
Naivety pops into my head!!!
There are monsters out there!
They may take advantage of you!
To over simplify …
It seems somewhere
My joy filled, carefree, fun loving self
Shifted to … fear based & consequences!
I grew up!
I became responsible!
Whatever prompted me
To make being adult & responsible vs
Joy filled & fun loving
Mutually exclusive?
For whatever reason …
I cemented that association
And it has taken many years to dismantle it
Not that it has to!
I chose to make it long & drawn out
I had many lessons to learn
And of course
I wanted to do it MY way!!!
And so I did!!
I think
In a way
It was my own form
Of discipline … of training
My very own personalised Masters degree!
So now …
I realise the truth …
I am
And can be
Joy filled at any moment!
Despite anything else …
I am doing
I am having
I am being
It is disrespect for self
If we do not honour
That within our ourselves
Part of our life spark
The human spirit
That flows thru us all
How can we deny that
Being Joy filled
Is our birth right!