Flirting With Danger
We berate ourselves
Giving ourselves a hard time
Mustn’t forget the mistakes we have made
All the stupid things we have said & done!
Constant inner chatter
Looping our minds into never ending questioning
We are our own worst enemy!
Self talk erodes any remaining confidence
It fuels our growing self doubt!
Clarity of purpose thwarted
Activity slows
Ultimately grinding to a halt
That inner sense of knowing … lost
Momentarily at first
Then for prolonged periods
Futility sets in
Deepened by the knowledge of how high we can achieve
Spiraling downwards
We crash & burn
Frustrated from the apathy
Perplexed we watch the deepest desire
To bring about our darkest fate!
Why do we dance this seductive dance?
Wooing failure
Flirting with danger
Taunting the unacceptable
Like a long lost lover
The embrace is almost impossible to break
Sacrificing all that we have
All inroads we have made
All achievements to date
For what?
We know not!
We just feel compelled to act this way
As though it comes from deep within
We know not the rhyme or reason
It makes no sense
We have so much going for us
But deep inside the discontent grows
We feel contempt
Devoid of all love …
For self …
For others …
True disdain
We have no tolerance
Why this deep disturbance?
Perhaps we aren’t good enough
Always raising the bar
When is enough enough?
We continue thru the day
Making things a thousand times worse
Who needs enemies when we have ourselves
Help … I’m sleeping with the enemy!
No one can hurt me as much as me
I keep punishing me
For what …
There’s always something I’ve done wrong!
We are the toughest on ourselves
Why can’t we choose the easy route!
It’s there for the taking
Part of you wants to
Part of you feels it’s a cop out
No pain … no gain
And we want lots of gain
So hence we must endure the pain!
Pain which we inflict upon ourselves
Surely life was meant to be easy!
But for some stupid reason we do not allow this!!
We make everything complicated
Making it a chore or a drama!
Why do we struggle so?
Is it part of our growth & transformation?
Like the caterpillar to the butterfly
It uses every last bit of energy
All effort to rip away the stifling cocoon
It sheds its ugly skin
It starts a new stage of life
Perhaps it is with us
Each struggle represents another step
And as we wrestle with our circumstances
We shed old beliefs & perceptions
No longer serving our new form
And as we stop to catch our breath
Our new purpose unveils
A new chapter begins
We are armed with greater knowledge & know how
For the next leg of the journey
Discoveries to be made
Challenges to be conquered
Joyful times to be shared
In our new form …
With open hearts & minds
We start to hear the whispers of our soul
Urging us on
Giving us a sense of direction
Lighting Our Way!